the Beautiful by michelle tea

a coke and a smoke
as we roam the grey prairie.
what sentiment do i want
to express at the end
of our world,
a terrific excitement
as we prepare
to exit
america.
many eyes
america the
hydra
the milky stuffed
beast the roast beef
sandwich
of america.
i have no doubt we
created it.
the absent truckers
stitching the states
together, the moving
monuments
of this country.
we destroy
a little bit
of everything
we pass.
the bomb tucked
dearly
into farm land.
rest stops,
missing but
a simple bolt
of certain rage.
the wake of america
at our tail oh
we could kill it,
couldn't we.
america
what shitty parents you were.
we have to
run away
again and again
we keep
coming back
to see if you missed us
but you didn't
even know
we were gone.
we write tell-all books
about out rotten childhoods
the bad food
you fed us
-the coat-hanger
beatings
can i process
my bad relationship
with america,
can we go to couple's counseling
can we sit down and talk about
all this
bad energy?
oh america i love you
i just want to
go on a date with you
and you won't even give me
the time of day
stuck up bitch
think you're too good for me america
i could have anyone
canada london
amsterdam
is in love with me
but it's you i wnat
america.
what could i do
to impress you?
i could write you
an anthem
but you have
so many
fuck you
america
you're just so
emotionally
unavailable
you act like
it's everyone else's
fault, you're a
really bad
communicator
and you have
serious
boundary issues.
i think you're
really fucked u
america
i think you've got
a lot of
problems.
i keep getting all these
hang-up calls
i know
it's you america
you better cut the shit
i'm getting a restraining
order. if america comes
within 25 feet of me
i'm throwing her ass
in jail how do you like
that america you can
dish it out
but you really can't
take it america
you're such a baby
we've been together
all these years
and you still won't let me call you
girlfriend
you act like it doesn't mean
anything.
i'm over it america
i think you're really
self-loathing
you know
i made you
what you are today
i think you forget about that
well you can just forget
about everything
america
you can just forget
the whole thing
i'm going home

wonderful poem by the lesbian poet based in San Francisco... Read my Chinese translation by clicking the title on top...